It’s crazy when I think about it. Not three years ago I was a broken man. I was hopeless. I was in a marriage that was ending with someone I loved very much but could no longer live with due to a number of things. That is not the point though. She is not an evil person and neither am I.
What I think is crazy is, that if you had asked me three years ago, what I thought the future held for me…I would have said pain and sorrow. I was convinced that life was just a constant recycling of the same actions that got you nowhere.
Well, I realize now that is so untrue. I went from overwhelming grief to overwhelming joy in a matter of a few years. I am overcome with emotion. The full range of them. Some of them I am having to deal with for the first time in a long time and it feels really strange.
Day by day though I learn. One step at a time. When I feel something strongly I take a step back and assess where those feelings are coming from and try to figure out what to do with them.
Yes, that is right, the advice columnist is human and has issues of his own :-). thankfully though, the universe planned for me to be able to deal with the extreme emotions I feel by being equally as logical which allows me to take that step back and assess.
Don’t get me wrong it is not an easy thing to do but in nearly 40 years I think I have the hang of it.
All in all it has been worth it. I have learned to appreciate every emotion for exactly what it is…yet another small piece of the very complicated puzzle that makes me…well…me!
Peace, love and happiness always,